Wednesday, September 24, 2025

music monday, why i couldnt pay attention to the minecraft server and the usual


yall i know im late again whatever. i dont even know if anyone reads this anymore so if u do then like give me a sign cuz yeah idk ive been missing so many posts that id litterally understand why noone cares.

so what should we begin with? stuff that i write in every post or music monday. if you dont care you can skip this but i just realized im the same person that people like step on and i cant let that happen i wont care how many friendships its going to take cuz real ones will understand THAT YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO TREAT ME LIKE SHIT HOE. anyways than theres this certain person that gives me the most mixed signals ever and really is just such an asshole anyways. ALSO ive been studying A LOT. working on my future i think? anyways yeah, thats what i will do after this post: learn physics. so far im at a b avarage cuz i missed a week of school and was behind on everything and i litterally had to learn like 6 subjects in the previous 3 days.

MUSIC MONDAY (late yet again, i should replace monday with something else but i wont)

STUFF YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO (now)

1. she's not me by THE QUEEN OF POP MADONNA (there wasnt a bigger font)

I JUST WANNA BE THERE WHEN YOU DISCOVER YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING NEXT TO YOUR NEW LOVER. YALL HAVE THAT ONE FRIEND THAT COPIES YALL THEN THIS SONG IS FOR YOU (i have that one friend too tho we are both male so this song doesnt really apply BUT STILL IM LIKE I RELATE HOE) 

God Control by Madonna (TW gun control) 



You know that its serious when i type like a normal human being. actuaally, no i cant continue this but this song is a really serious one and i recommend listening to it. it not only blends being experimental with the 80's disco vibe, its a new era of the queen of pop bringing awareness to something new and i was just... i remember when my life was with this album MADAME X and i will write a post about it probably... but if its not obvious its about gun control and its not something i can relate to because its a way bigger issue in the US but it still talks to me and not only the lyrics its just how can someone 35 years into their career at the time release something so new and different and i dont even know what to say. YES, I WILL FINISH LEARNING AND WRITE THE POST ON MADAME X! i recommend this album idk yes there are cringe parts but i think its worth it. okay i rethinked it and not sure about the madame x post now but we will see.



 1. born this way by lady gaga

also sorry for the disgusting color choises i have no idea how to undo it this looked cool in my head


THIS ONE IS FOR ALL THE GAY, LESBIAN, BI WHATEVER PEOPLE IN THE COMMUNITY (cuz i know theres a lot of that in there) and like this is such  a good song. too bad she copied it off madonna's express yourself  cuz yall should look up the lady gaga-madonna beef she even copied her this year with the concert in rio and i just feel so bad listening to gaga. anyways GREAT SONG its about accaptance and lgbtq stuff and like saying u were born this way and u shouldnt feel bad for having sex with man or women or anything inbetween <3

Thursday, September 18, 2025

music friday, cake, insanity.

 hey yall so i think im experiencing insanity right as im typing this. also i havent been to school this week idc. also i went on this giant rant infront of my father now he "cares about stuff" idk tho. 


I BAKED A CAKE

so the way i originally got the inspiration to make a cake involved a giant rant to my father and bringing a cake i made for myself to my fathers and her girlfriends house at 9pm in the rain. yall might hear that story idk if i will make a post about it (prob not cuz im mentally physically spiritually exhausted)


anyways that was the first cake but GUESS WHAT BITCHES, I BAKED A SECOND CAKE TODAY. yes and also guess what? I HAVE THE RECIPE. and also guess what? IT TASTED VERY FUCKING GOOD.


so i will give u the recipe and show yall a few pictures of the cake RECIPE AT THE END OF THE POST

MUSIC MONDAY(more like friday)

im so excited for this music monday CUZ THERE ARE A LOT OF MUSIC RELATED DISCOVERIES I HAD RECENTLY also more interactive stuff towards yall like whatever.


so first entry


ADDISON


(by addison rae) so this album really resonates with me cuz idk. i love aquamarine, a generic love song but its clearly inspired by madonna's ray of light with even referencing it in the lyrics, and referencing madonna's vogue dance moves in the music video. love diet pepsi too, another love song. but my two favorites are fame is a gun and high fashion. idk why but they are so good.

APHRODITE & ANGEL IN THE CLUB

2 songs very cunty songs from a relatively small artist thats pretty cool. aphrodite is clearly about beauty (makes me think about lady gaga's venus or the other artpop songs weve talked about but oh dont you dare think this post will lack a bit of gaga) and angel in the club is just pure cuntiness ngl.

ARTPOP (my mix)

so the new spotify update is out and theres this feature that you can now mix songs yay so i decided to mix artpop to my liking into a non-stop version. i added do what u want which was supposed to be on the album but removed due to contreversies and removed another shit song and screwed with the lineup to make transitions as seemless as i could. anyways so i think you can listen to this on phone or even on pc if your spotify is updated and has the mix feature.  thats all for todays post luv yall heres the recipe:  preheat the oven to 180 degrees and prepare the cake pan in which you will pour the cake. we needed a pan of about 15 cm, but it doesn’t really matter, the size will only determine the height of the cake. in the picture you can see about how big ours turned out in this pan. put baking paper inside the cake pan, but place a small dot of butter between the baking paper and the pan so that the paper sticks. i repeat, it must go between the pan and the paper, not between the cake and the paper.

3 eggs
3 tablespoons flour
1 flat teaspoon cornstarch (optional)
3 tablespoons sugar
for the 3 tablespoons flour add half a small teaspoon of baking powder. it’s important to use only a very small amount.

the sugar needs to be divided in half: beat the egg yolks with one half until foamy, and the egg whites with the other half. (start with the yolks because they take longer to whip, and meanwhile the whites would collapse.) whip the whites in a clean bowl without any trace of yolk.

then gently fold the yolk mixture into the whites. while doing this, gradually add the flour until incorporated. don’t forget to add a pinch of salt. then pour the batter into the pan and put it into the preheated oven for 30 minutes. we used convection, but if you don’t have that option the cake will still bake. after taking it out of the oven, wait until it cools before cutting it into three layers. it’s important to wait for it to cool, otherwise the cake will turn out bad. don’t worry if it sinks a little or looks wrinkly after baking, that’s normal.

filling cream recipe:
200 ml cold heavy cream (30% fat)
250 g cold mascarpone
3–4 tablespoons powdered sugar
2 tablespoons unsweetened cocoa powder

  1. whip the cold heavy cream until semi-stiff.

  2. in another bowl, mix the mascarpone with the powdered sugar and cocoa until smooth.

  3. gently fold the whipped cream into the mascarpone-cocoa base. if it’s too soft, chill in the fridge for 15–20 minutes. optional: stabilizer. i used one small packet of dr. oetker whipped cream stabilizer, as recommended for 200–250 ml cream. don’t forget to add a pinch of salt. once it’s ready you can spread it between the layers. this gives you a thick, tasty cocoa cream.

optional buttercream coating:
70 g butter
70 g powdered sugar

i also added one vanilla sugar, but grind it to powder so it won’t be grainy. alternatively, you can add vanilla extract or real vanilla. i used this cream to cover the cake around and on top. if you want a nice cake, cut the top smooth, or try trimming it around – i didn’t do that. (translated by chatgpt sorry if its shit)




Monday, September 1, 2025

school + music monday II

SCHOOL

well yall school started and idk if anything gonna change this year... i mean i will try. u know i have newer better friends and a bit of confidence now- i wont let these hoes fuck my future up and wont leave the ppls i care about alone. so yh im here im fucking back and thats all. also according to my friends i had a glow up over the summer?? omg yall thats like crazy (tho i really had one) but its not like im a fine shyt rn its more like i got rid of that chopped ass haircut and finally have clothes that a decent human being would put on their body. anyways. oh my god after i wrote this idk wtf just happened but i had this wave of uncertanity again thinking about the future - what if i die and its all for nothing or the world collapses and society ceases to exist as we know it today? and idk why i just had this feeling again. anyways thats about school. ALSO SORRY FOR BEING INACTIVE THIS WEEK I WAS JUST REALLY STRUGGLING.

MUSIC MONDAY YALL

kay so this week of mine was litterally full of music as i was just litterally so afraid of starting school and stuff but yeah we are here and my taste hasnt changed a lot since last week. there are new songs different songs but idk if i will have any new artists or genres. anyways lets stop the yappery and get into it.

jewels n' drugs by lady gaga ft t.i. n too $hort

i listened to this one a lot. its basically about rejecting materialism and taking love so that she'd rather want fun and love over money. okay now this isnt me but i just like the sound of the song like im litterally so materialistic but yhhhh. cool song worth checking out. the song is on artpop (2013) which i talked about last time but im going to talk about it again cuz i just explored more tracks on it. 

venus by lady gaga 

this song is about sexuality and love, a common theme in lady gaga's music. its not named venus by coincidence. if u paid attention during history lessons u know that venus is the roman goddess of love. its weird cuz in artpop mythology and sexual themes are pretty common. anyways its a very weird song, experimental, not at all radio friendly and thats all i gotta say about this one.

jealous type and need to know by doja cat

this is a new release pretty popular too its basically about being jealous in ur relationship. yeah. need to know is about attraction and love too but i like that one a bit more idk. 

the hills by the weeknd 

this one is prob the most popular of all the releases here. yeah its about... idk listen to it. im tired of writing so much. artpop is like a deeper album and more interesting TF IMMA WRITE ABOUT THESE.
i wont even embed the spotify whatever here cuz many of yall use apple music or other services anyways and im just lazy.

okay i also listened to many songs that i also talked about last time. something i still really like is sexxx dreams by gaga idk... its just so... different and explores themes of true love and like im in a catholic school but never had anything against people with different sexual orientations and its just such a special song. then also g.u.y. and remember how we talked about mythology in artpop? g. u. y. starts by referencing gods and whatever. idk. thats all thank yall for reading <3

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